7/28/2014 – I started writing this last Thursday, July 24th. It was Dan and my anniversary, we tried to celebrate the best we could, but we are both still very much grieving the loss of Dan’s father. Through the last couple of days I have come to realize this post, just like Dan and my love, are a constant work in progress…
Today my husband and I celebrate 10 years of marriage. Dan, our son and myself went to Texas Roadhouse, which is one of our favorite special occasion eateries. When I stop to think about the last 10 years I stop in disbelief. I can not believe it has been 10 years. It really truly seems like yesterday when we said our I dos. I wake up more and more in love with this man every single day. However, I am not going to sit here and tell you it has been unicorns and rainbows all these years. We have had our ups and downs. I have wanted to give up and give in, but then where would I go, what would I do? Half of me would be missing, I would not be whole. Dan completes me!! Sappy… yep. Cliché…probably. We balance each other out in a way that is unexplained. We truly were made for each other. I am his and he is mine and we are floundering through this river of life, happily (for the most part) on year 10.
Back to thinking about the last 10 years… It really has been a long 10 years. A lot can happen in a decade! We have moved 3 times. We gave birth to our amazing son who will be 8 this year. We found out he has Duchenne Muscular Dystrophy, Dan and I have had two miscarriages, we have found out Dan is bipolar and I lost a great paying yet very stressful job, which was more than half our income at the time. And, here I am now heart broken yet trying to hold it together for my two guys.
Yes, some of those things are sad, but I honestly I think those things have helped us to grow in our relationship/ marriage. We have learned to depend on each other. We know that we can count on each other and be there when the other just can’t do it.
We are proud of who we are as a family. We try not to let our diagnoses and tragedies define us. We will continue to grow and love each other and our child as long as we can. We will welcome more children if that is God’s will, but will be content if it is not. We will cherish the memories we have of our loved ones passed, and continue to create and cherish new memories along the way.
We have had an amazing, blessed journey together, even if we haven’t always seen it that way, and we will continue to have an amazing and blessed life!
I love you Dan! Happy anniversary baby, I raise my glass to many many many many decades more! Your wifey Tara.